Warning: I have edited my “rantro-duction” after reading this hilarious but sad page. I named this entry “I’m with gullible before I read the page and now it’s even more sad/funny. Mostly sad though.
The internet makes me sad sometimes with the staggering amount of information, incorrect, inaccurate or just plain malicious. In addition, yes I think we’re “out there” too much but that’s a whole other rant. So is my feelings about bad grammar and missing words on “professional” blogs.
**** There is no malicious or cruel intent in my interest in this subject. If anything, I hope any readers would examine their daily information intake and decide decisively whether information is accurate or inaccurate. ****
Surfing the Internet
When I first had access to the internet in 1996, I used it for research in high school (namely researching RHPS). Then at 18, I spent a lot of time online reading, learning HTML and playing online “MUDs” (multiplayer real-time virtual world, usually text-based according to wikipedia.com). Later, I spent time online shopping, building my own websites and chatting with people from all over the US. In 1999, I started online… Continue reading
Lately, I have been posting a lot of my experiences on Facebook regarding the pregnancy and the local stance on c-section. I feel bad drawing comparisons between the UK and US, I know it probably offends people to some extend which I do apologize for. I know that no one wants to hear “but in my country …”. I’m not saying that though, I’m saying “I have a limited understanding. This is what I have experienced, can you tell me how it may differ?”
What I can say is, I can only draw from what I know and ask questions to help myself understand what I am facing as a first time mother. I feel badly if some people (mostly midwives) take offense to my asking questions but at the end of the day, it’s my body, my pregnancy and I have to feel comfortable with the outcome.
Warning: These opinions are my own. The statements below therapist los angeles do not seek to replace any sort of professional advise, do not seek to judge or convince any one of anything.
As some of you (most of you) may know, Ken and I are expecting! That’s right, a baby … not a shipment, not to loose our minds (well that too …) but a tiny human!
We announced to our family and friends a few weeks ago. I would dare say that do to becoming pregnant, I have neglected my various blogging. Honestly, I had before to some large extent but then after becoming pregnant, I also started to have “autoimune thyroiditis” again which made me stupidly tired as well as just regular first trimester tiredness. Now, things are improving, being on thyroid medicine and slowly feeling more energetic and optimistic daily.
We conceived in April, probably around mid-month. I had started having some pain on my left side so the family GP suggested an ultra-sound. And that’s when we saw “ALF” a.k.a. Angry Little Fish (because that’s what the baby looked like). We spent a few weeks anxious, nervous and a bit afraid of jumping the gun with telling everyone though it had been driving Ken nuts! He kept asking when we were allowed to tell. :-) I wanted to wait until the 12 week… Continue reading
Well, I have officially been in the UK now since February 9th *thinks* so nearly 8 weeks. Things have been slow as far as my getting out and meeting people because I feel very vulnerable and “naked” here. Things really are the same but different so I feel a bit like an alien, grey skin, big eyes and all.
My first step was to find a therapist close to our home so I could see someone about what I’m feeling and the things that are coming up. I realized nearly right away that … to put it lightly a LOT of issues have come up, personally. Here is just a quick breakdown:
- Being married! Hah, no small adjustment for a single, independent girl. It’s new for both Ken and I, blending our beliefs, how we do things and what we like with each other. I have to remind him to slow down and include me in the little things like washing up, cooking, laundry, shopping. He’s used to do all these things alone so asking him to slow down and include me is a big adjustment for him. Not working or having “my own money” is a… Continue reading
Random poetry, not good per se but some interesting imagery for me.
Sunday, February 03, 2013 8:40:00 PM
“tell us a story about her” they say
she wrote poetry under a tin roof in the rain
words are the raindrops, splashes into puddles of pain
the emotions we feel some times leave a stain
she wrote poetry to make the silence go away
some times the cure is worse than the disease
she tried so hard but in the end she could not please …
the people who stare in through the windows, they would not leave
from sun up to sun down, another day down the drain she could not retrieve
she wrote poetry to make the world go away
ask yourself about voices that you hear
do they tell you something or are they just your fear?
in the stillness of the evening when all you have are tears
do you remember her eyes as they watched you grow all these years
she wrote poetry to make the heartache go away
“tell us about her” they say
the cuts she mended with rags and kisses
words heal the hurt from the things that she misses
the blood… Continue reading