A lot of change in 9 months …
I’m not sure I can adequately bring both you and ME up to speed on the last several months. I’ll try, however.
In may of 2011, I finally said good-bye to “r” and decided to move on with my Life. While I told him then that there was no one else, I was wrong. I knew from the moment I first started talking to @kentague aka Kenneth that there was just something about him. This is the part where if this were a movie or sitcom, the screen would go all funny and you’d hear a dozen difference voices telling me I “deserve to be loved”, I’ll “find the right guy” and the like. When anyone hears this after years of heartbreak or a particularly difficult break-up, one tends to think it’s a load of RUBBISH and SHIT. I certainly did … <camera goes funny again> but fast forward to almost, neigh, immediately after said break-up. I didn’t know it but when Kenneth posted the photo saying “distance means so little when someone means so much”, well, that clinched it some where in my heart. I really did at that moment start to believe, on some level, that all that RUBBISH and SHIT people had been telling me could maybe, sort of, kind of be true. Read the rest of this entry »
Engaged!
I haven’t posted since I started my new job back around July of this year. It’s been a weird and mostly wonderful roller coaster from starting a new job and all the stress that goes with it to nurturing a new relationship. I am pleased to announce that as of 23rd November, 2011 Ken Tague asked me to marry him. We picked our the engagement ring together. We got a bit lost on our way home from the jewelry store, had to be rescued by “C” but by the time we got back to our beautiful hotel room at The Clarendon in downtown Phoenix, Ken was ready to ask “officially”.
More details will be forth coming as the even nears. We are shooting for Fall of next year, hopefully October/November. We will also be posting to our mutual wedding website which I will post a link to as it comes together.
To all that are supporting us and cheering us on, thank you!I know our courtship has been fairly brief (though longer than many I know of), we’re very much in love and very happy together. I’ve never met another man so kind, loving and compassionate. He truly fulfills me in every way.
love – k
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Panic Sets In …
I know, I only say something when things are terrible, don’t I?
The update: I lost my job in May and was unemployed until July 11th when I started a new job. Things have been going well except for a few small errors here and there. Of course that causes major panic in my mind but no one else seems bothered much.
My love life has been on a surprising up swing with a wonderful, kind, loving man in my Life. We talk every day and its as if we’ve known each other ages. I’m very comfortable with him. I love how he makes me feel like a lady, despite the fact that I’m sometimes vulgar, insane or vapid. He seems to roll with me and love me despite my recent tumbles.
Speaking of tumbles, since I lost said job I now am without health care. This is of course a concern that creeps in the back of my mind daily with my FMS and various chronic issues. I manage alright with a positive attitude and pain killers but take away the pain killers (what few I can stomach) and the positive attitude starts to wain.
With this said, my dr has picked now to deny my Tramadol refill and require me to come see her. I’ll call and appeal to her mercy until I can arrange insurance through the temp agency I’m working for. All of this means of course 1) hoping she extends my scrip and 2) less money because I’m sure the coverage won’t be cheap.
I’m already struggling daily to make it through a day before I come home and pass out. Its terrifying to deal with worsened pain while trying to hold down a job I am praying will go permanent (which is a whole other story).
I tell myself I have to follow my usual strategy of systematically reviewing my obstacles and then calmly tackling each one. Of course that’s hard for me, not being a master at organising my own life. I’m great at organising work things but Life things? Gah, I’m a wreck at it!!
*deep breaths*
I just need to pray, take some time to think things through and not rush my actions. Yes, that’s all important. I just wish I weren’t so fucking exhausted all the time. :-(
- k
Wednesday, June 22, 2011 9:30:56 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011 9:30:56 PM
to see you, your bright shy smile – is to adore you
feeling your face with my fingertips – tracing your jawline
feeling your fingers teasing my lips – my body
i feel whole as i’ve ever been in the bonds of trust
take hold of binds which strain against my flesh
hoist me into your arms helplessly
no fear, only desire rushes inside of me when with you
blinded more by desire than by cloth covering my eyes
Wednesday, June 22, 2011 9:33:40 PM
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Wednesday, June 22, 2011 08:48:53 PM
dream-like sureality casts a spell over two bodies
entwined in a dance of embraces – hand to hand, limbs tangled together
take my breath – inhale deeply
filling this room is steam – desire – our scent
candles flicker, shaping our shadows and causing them to perform an erotic dance
before us inside this chamber of cleansing – heat rises
meeting our moistening skin as we drift as if in a dream into this amber water
Wednesday, June 22, 2011 08:56:15 PM
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